I have finished fasting for Joel..

And I was praying last night.. I felt very much that I have done my part for Joel.. and knew that as I was praying.. that I did not any longer have to pray..

The testing of this I felt in my soul was not reading any more updates.. when I checked my emails today there was two updates.. Ohhhh... that is hard..  But I did not check.. and I will not go back to the site..

I went over with the Lord all that He says.. and I have done all I know He wants me to do.. and so it is done.. My part is done.. strange for me.. because I have always been an encourager.. I keep going back.. back to keep praying.. back to keep believing.. back to keep fighting I suppose you might say all that is going backwards if you look at it that way.. BUT! I felt this time.. this is what I should do!! To stop and take a stand is not to keep going back but to go forward.. There was certainly alot of people there to encourage.. so I can rest in that part..

I feel strange not doing what I would normally do.. but that is how I sense it must be for now.. and this is not leaning on my own understanding!!

1 John 5:14-15

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.